Chapter fifteen of Genesis opens with Abram’s vision, he and God had a conversation and this is how it went.
God: “Abram, don’t be afraid, I’m your shield. Your reward will be grand!”
Abram: “Uhm, thanks but no thanks, what use are your gifts as long as I am childless, when I die, my servant will inherit everything I own”.
God: *remains silent*
Abram: “You haven’t given me any children have you?, this servant will get everything I own”.
God: “When you die, you will have a son of your own who will get everything you own, I promise”.
Quite often when I think about something long enough before I drift off to sleep I end up dreaming about it, I learnt this happens to a lot of people too so permit me to say perhaps Abram’s childlessness was on his mind a lot and this particular day he was thinking about it again before he fell asleep and then God decided to talk to him about it through a vision.
The point I’m trying to make is that Abram was afraid for the future and God didn’t rebuke him for it instead He reassures him through a promise that he would receive what he desired the most. Shout out to Abram and Sarai (renamed Abraham and Sarah) through them we end up seeing God as a promise keeper.
I’m writing about this because lately I’ve been so anxious. Like Abram I have this one prayer request that has been long unanswered and it’s always on my mind. I receive God’s blessings regularly and I know in His plans for me are more blessings but … more than ever as the year comes to a close, I have become more aware of my age and how badly I want that prayer request answered. I have received prophecies that my desire will become a reality and I have read it for myself in the scriptures that God will make it happen but my anxiety doesn’t stem from God inability to do what He says He will (I have faith in God and His ability), but I’m anxious because I don’t understand His plans, I don’t know how He will make it happen. So I find myself asking God different questions, reminding Him of the obvious and yet He constantly reassures me …
I know I can’t be the only one who has a long unanswered prayer request, who has become anxious with the closing of the year or because of their age, who also doesn’t understand God’s plan or His ways.. if you fall in this category, know this, your feelings are valid, believing in God doesn’t exempt you from having moments when you will feel anxious because you don’t understand His plans. I believe the way to go about it is to be as vulnerable as you can with God, ask Him questions, state the obvious, tell Him how you feel and allow Him calm your fears, reassure you and fill your heart with His peace, no point pretending or suffering in silence.
Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God and the peace of God which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:6-7 (NKJV)
• Father, nudge me by your spirit to bring all my cares and worries before you in prayer.
• Father, help me be vulnerable with you.
• Fill me with your peace as I await the manifestation of my desires.
Ponder on this
If you don’t talk to God about everything and anything, you’d keep forfeiting your peace.